started off seemingly normal. till i stepped out and waited. i'd recognize it as a colour-blindness test. coloured dots with glitter i'd say. but still i took another step of agony and wilfulness. why and whatever for?
then came the outpour of rainforest bells. fresh, streamed, caught, fell. called out into the dead of silence. trees rustled, light barely glimmered. i surrendered and retreated. to the comfort and privacy of my quarters. i'll admit defeat this time. yea so much for saying "thats damn weak".
thats just me. i'm strong-willed, determined and unyielding. whether its a good thing or not. thats left to perception. so baby. you gotta have the right stuff to handle me.
anyhow. i'm missing you while you're away.
girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes silver white winters that melt into spring these are a few of my favourite things.
perfection at 2:47 PM
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Monday, May 29, 2006
happy birthday to me :) today was solely retail therapy day ! yea somebody get me a sponsor please.
wishlist: new wallet. ( one with style and class, hopefully as long as my current one ) new sling bag. nice bling funky belts. converse double tongue red and black :D drumsticks. ( no not the one from chickens and stuff ) a new electric guitar. ( that i can keep on wishing ) if all else fails, guitar picks and guitar models ! i'd love 'em all the same (:
thank you, all my birthday wishers ! you all really made my day. so heartwarming :D
new unconventional vision. random jammer shirt. black tie with a white elvis print. white washed half-trousers. black and gold belt. silver huge loop earrings. black and gold heeled pumps.
on hindsight. it aint about you being able to sing to yourself. its whether you are able to sing to an audience. overcome conquer take charge enjoy.
every sunrise speaks of Your unfailing love every blessing from heaven tells of Your amazing grace.
perfection at 2:57 PM
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Saturday, May 27, 2006
VIBRATO; vibes of the strings. hmm now doesnt that sound a little wrong. but oh wells. its the name of the aj guitar concert 2006.
blue exit performance. iris and stand by me. so thankful i didnt forget my lyrics for iris. guitar ensem people are really supportive. good-natured bunch.
i got a pretty sunflower ! from guitar ensem. awww i feel appreciated.
and ya, thanks harry. for accompanying me through my apparent isolation. yea this is home, truly (:
so we end this song with these words so true its our honour to be here to stand by you.
perfection at 3:21 PM
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
i feel this extreme urgent need to address this issue. NO THERE'S NOTHING GOING ON. you wanna know the story? then ask. i'll give it to you.
question. why is dania jamming with extasy? answer to question. dania loves X-Japan. none of her bands wanna jam X-Japan songs. extasy offers her a place as keys and second guitar. dania accepts. need i say more? i dont hear anyone asking why i'm jamming with bluexit. i rest my case.
kurenai ni somatta kono ore o nagusameru yatsu wa mou inai.
perfection at 3:06 PM
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Friday, May 19, 2006
extasy jamming. one of the best i've had in ages. sadly, desley didnt come. or i would've been on keys or second guitar. they're so full of energy ! awesome, all i can say is that it was awesome. though i thought i went deaf.
you dont know what i know you dont know what i have. you dont know what i've been through. you dont know what i've emerged to become. if you dont know my past. you dont know who i am. is this simple enough a theory for you?
i do not like geeks in the pink. i repeat. i DO NOT like geeks in the pink, fin.
i hear a knock on the door hageshiku semaru ushinai kaketa ishiki no naka de omae ga sasayaku weekend i'm at my wits end.
perfection at 3:15 PM
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
i miss jamming. all the noise and the fuzz. all the screaming over blasting instruments. finally, to break this abstinence. leaving chem spa next wednesday.
why does it have to come from you people. the exception from all else. the closest quint interaction circle. where comfort and ease supposedly co-exists with unfamiliarity. instead i seek shelter elsewhere. a civilization with open arms and subtle judgement. to that society i belong. not one that has been chosen for me by circumstance.
i just realised that i know more j2s than j1s. as in i'm closer to more j2s than j1s that is. thats a pretty sad thing though. they'll be leaving next year. the reason being, simply put, is that i relate better to them. they've seen so much more of the world. than the typical anderson j1. no negative connotation suggested (:
i'm two quarters and a heart down and i dont want to forget how your voice sounds these words are all i have so i'll write them so you need them just to get by dance dance.
perfection at 2:52 PM
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
successfully influenced my brother and cousins to enjoy camwhoring. and they're all guys. my mom was pretty fascinated that pictures of our reflections in the mirror could be taken. oh wow how novel.
attended a wedding today at sentosa. i didnt even know the bride and groom. oh wells expensive dinner anyway. apparently a higher percentage of my time was spent in the resort lifts and perspiring in the arcade. camwhoring and arcading respectively. how disrespectful, tsktsk.
random thought. i'm gonna hire a rock band to play at my wedding. and its not gonna be held in Botanical Gardens.
i can soooo tell if you're a true blue AJCian.
you ask how deep i love you so how far this love could go so i say to you that my love is true that my heart still beats for you yue liang dai biao wo de xin.
perfection at 4:36 PM
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Friday, May 12, 2006
i'm guessing this entry is gonna be a pretty obscure one. so if you're interested, come ask me about it. and i'll decide if i wanna tell you (:
i love my bestfriend. ok thats not too hard to understand. as her title suggests, she's the best. we sooo need to shop more, camwhore more, stone more and hopefully catch a movie. catch ya later, babe.
its all about the control. with your mental mastermind. limitations are set partially by the physical but mostly by the psychological. overcome it innately. exclusives get all the glory.
could it be a step not taken in time. like a flower in late bloom. till it reaches a critical stage of silence. or did it plainly lack the awaited break. whichever, time doesnt turn back. nor does it value patience as a virtue. so keep up with it.
i see a flickering glint of hope within this tragedy. possibly this dead end is alive. water begins to surface in this vast desert ahead. you havent discovered what lies beneath. do not despair just yet.
doesnt matter how much focus i've been putting on drums just recently. i realised that my passion still lies with guitar. someone get me a new proper electric guitar ! hint: the 28th of may is drawing near :P
wanna be rich? wanna design your own mansion? wanna control other people's lives? play The Sims. ok that was totally random.
yes i'm emo and i know it.
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite dry your tears with love.
perfection at 5:29 PM
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Saturday, May 06, 2006
haha ok fine here's an update. well i havent really been listening to english songs much recently. basically cuz i spend all that time figuring the music arrangement of "Silent Jealousy". its the best song ever.
performing for aj guitar concert. even when i'm not related to aj guitar club in any way whatsoever. oh wells i'll just be some random guest singer then.
i love the way you laugh. i love the way you smile. i love the way you pamper. i love the way you care. i love the way you are.
moe taekirenai kodoku no serenade kyozou no umi ni nagashite silent jealousy yume ni ochite.
perfection at 11:06 AM
theJOURNEY.
theTUNES.
what sing you.
theMUSICIAN.
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